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So glad to be done with this semester after Thursday! Procrastinator 5,000 as blanca would say, I have to study right now for 2 exams and then tomorrow for Thursdays then I'm set. I got my passport in the mail today which is awesome however I wont need it until July which is a bummer. Glad to have it though!
Metric show is tomorrow and I really wanted to go but now I'm not so sure :/ We'll see how tonight and tomorrow feel.

I wrote another song... that makes 3 new songs in the past 2 weeks. Its almost a year since I wrote Predisposed so this is good, this is progress. Juny, Andy and I are starting to sound like a band :) those were his words. I dont want to pressure him but I would love for him to record on my album once I decided its ready. I actually have about 6-7 songs that I really like now (there are more which sandy and Juny really like but I think theyre not good enough) so this should be soon. the more I write the better I get, the more we play the better they sound... so thats exciting. Who knows, maybe someday soon I'll set up a show :)

it's getting better all the time

[Dec. 11th, 2009|10:23 am]

ininetyfour

If there is a writer whose work you enjoy or respect, the best thing you can do is send him/her some feedback on his/her work. I'm serious.

It was a hard adjustment from me to go from an activist lifestyle to one in which I don't run any organizations or publicly fight for issues or attend rallies or protests. Sometimes I feel bad about that, like I'm not contributing anything anymore. I feel like I was "good" back in college, and now I'm just like any other norm with a limited world view who doesn't do shit to make a positive difference in the world.

I've been getting letters from my readers lately and they make me feel so. much. better. They remind me why I started this in the first place: because words can make a difference and writing about things that matter to people give them validation and a sense that someone out there is listening to their concerns.

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It's mornings like today when I think back to all the people who told me to pursue something "easier" or warned me that I'd never make it doing this and laugh in their faces. Suck a dick, ya'll. I've always been someone who will fight like hell for what I want, and I'm so happy that people who've never seen that side of me have been officially proven wrong.

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[Dec. 10th, 2009|02:01 pm]

delicatesafety

it's like one week before NYC all over again.

i'm so sick of this.

Growing.

[Dec. 7th, 2009|07:46 pm]

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A quick update to say I'm loving all the new ideas we have brewing up at SureDesign :) a few of the projects that I'm working on and should probably refrain from disclosing too much about are:

- Final touches for small business starter packages and the marketing of these packages to newly established businesses

- A subdivision of SD which entails partnering up with several shops around Chicago who will distribute our line of our printing packages designed around the special occasions they cater to... I feel this is going to do very well

- Purchasing a few more assets for in-house printing (always fun)

- Soccer subdivision of SureDesign - offering custom uniform sets, promo items (soccer
balls, key chains trophies etc).

We've also recently acquired a minivan for which I am in the process of designing a full color vehicle wrap. It’s gonna be Hott. Great way to advertise, great to have for deliveries... I'm totally gonna drive that sucker all over Chicago, Ha.

Were on FIRE... What a fucking rush. I hope we dodge any negative vibes that come our way and stay on track. God knows I’m grateful for the opportunities that arise and I’m ready to tackle the challenges.

on top of all of this, I also wrote a song when the lights went out on Laramie St. and I would say its one of the best ones yet. Gotta keep the creative ball rolling!

despes de todo el esfurezo...

[Dec. 3rd, 2009|08:43 pm]

la cague! I bombed a presentation I worked really really really hard on to create. One of my classes required that we present a 15-20 minute selling scenario. I decided to go above and beyond and create those marketing packages for SureDesign I kept say I would get around to for the past 2-3 years. I spent aaaaalllll of my time working on the graphic design and the packages themselves (both of which I did get compliments for) but I didn’t rehearse with my partner and we bombed it...

Well I bombed it mostly. We had to work off a script and I was doing so bad I had to put it down and sell for real ha, which put him in a predicament because he kept going on key, sorta. Blah. I also did this feeling suuuuuper sick, I still feel nauseous because I was rehearsing in the car and I get car sick really fast especially if I'm reading. I left out key points and I was red and I'm so mad at myself for bombing it! :( I feel bad cause I know I'm my teachers favorite student (not to sound stuck up but I'm really respectful and always pay attention) he always uses me as an example and we discuss real scenarios so for me to be such an "expert" and bomb something so simple... that’s what I'm disappointed about. He even made excuses for me... I wanted to impress him and be the example he was expecting and all I did was prove I'm in his class for a reason. Oh well. I did give out some custom tote bags to all the students with my business cards they were super cute :)

I'm at the computer lab, Luckily Eme just called me and she offered to take me home. My little pregnant friend. she’s so sweet. she’s almost due! one month before her 21st birthday. She’s so young yet so mature.

my last class was optional and I opted my ass out of there - which is ok because I stayed Tues. to discuss Animal Spirits even though like 3/4 of the class left. I found it interesting that of the 4 people who stayed we were all Latinos and there were 3 male to one female. I wonder what that statistic means, if it means anything at all considering it was the end of the day when everyone wants to go home.

I'm soooo ready to go home now though! Take a nice long shower, jam out for a bit, get stoned for sure - Its how I cope :) ok, so Andy’s over and it's our favorite pastime. I'm a total addict though. The thing is, I don’t see anything wrong with it - I think it should be legal and the government should tax the hell out of it. It’s safer than knowing a guy who knows a guy. Luckily I know a guy :)

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[Dec. 2nd, 2009|04:18 pm]

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I realized, though its hard to admit, that I just might think about her everyday... and I don't know why... and I don't want to.

ugly words.

[Dec. 1st, 2009|03:38 pm]

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[	music	\|	a mix someone gave me...	]

Now I'm not going to erase that... just because I said I would. Take that sub-conscience! I don't hate Juny At All. In fact, I don't know what I would do if anything ever happened to her. We were fighting that night and I guess I have a lot of pent up anger which as we all know is completely my problem and I shouldn’t take it out on her. We actually had a great night until we got a little wasted and started arguing about nothing really. We’d been hanging out with Mary and Blanca, had dinner at La Concina which was ok Mexican food... I cook better ;) haha. But it was fun, then we headed over to Joie De Vine for a few, I had never been there before, it was nice. Mary was doing interpretive dance all over the place which was hilarious and probably an indication that we should have gone home afterwards but we decided to go to T's instead! We were all pretty buuuuzzed ::cough, wasted cough:: by then.

I've decided I no longer care for drinking with Juny. I think were much nicer to each other when we smoke. I want to setup a studio to start painting, I really miss it and I think the boys would love it. We've been hanging out with Sandy and Andy a lot. I LOVE Andy. He's perfect for my sister, its About Time she met someone who treated her like the amazing woman she is and he’s the whole package - funny, smart, humble, responsible, sensitive, creative and most importantly super sweet to my nephew! We smoke and jam together all the time and he came up with some awesome bass parts for my songs, it’s exactly what they were missing. He’s exactly what she was missing 

I hope one day I can find what I’m missing. I just have to find it within myself…